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IF YOU CAN MAKE IT THROUGH THAT MUCH BAD.
THE REST GETS EASY.
PEOPLE COME AND LEAVE
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Wednesday, February 29, 2012
/ -8:50 AM
its been ages since i last scribbled here. i kinda missed having to wrote my thoughts out here therefore my "coming back" means so much now then it ever was before.
couple of things that are in my head . sad things. melancholic. thoughts that are sparse yet indirect. feelings and emotions all engulf into my soul. before i begin , just a random story to tell, i am beginning to enjoy sitting alone again and watching landscapes alter. letting the wind brush through me. my thoughts goes beyond and escapes itself to infinite freedom. so there.
well recently like not too long ago, i made friends. new friends. entering their lives made me believed from the start that i am there to learn and changed. however at some point of it i was caught in between again. being bitched at.people miscommunicate and backstabbed. i shit you not, i wasnt surprised at all. i knew this was coming. in all honesty i have grown indifferent about and i could not care less. i spoon fed myself with confidence and life and being in this state all over again just means molding myself into a stronger being.
i have lost people, reconnected with some and fought for few. its life. we constantly do this. why am i spouting this on this paragraph? well let me make this clear, the paragraph before and this one are two different stories. ok? ok good. let it be known to you that i am not easy to understand. eversince my dad passed away 11 years ago i grew up searching for myself all by myself and being the eldest clearly did not help at all. Today is February the 29th and i still could not define myself in a simple sentence. there is one thing i know though, that im honest with my feelings and instincts when im down in love. cheesy but true and i have always been in love. in love with life's obstacles and obstructions. i knw im contradicting myself here, im fickle so screw me. im typing this to a certain someone i knew for a long time now. 3 years? we have seen each other grow at some point and you and i have came across alot of hardships. throughout the life span i knew you i can strongly say that the times i have been there to cater your needs has always been a bliss for me and being apart from you now, i will always cherished the good times. infact i always have been cherishing the good times whenever you are not there for me which is often. i have grown on missing you so much more then being next to you that i find myself more at peace when you are not there because your figure appears more in my thoughts then my eyes. i dont know if you will ever open your eyes but im sure that i will still be here.
somehow i thank those problems in making me the person i am today.
it might hurt to lose people but perhaps they just weren't suppose to stay
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I am solely driven by Hatred.I flourish over the past.I am inspired by many artists of all genres for many reasons.I thrive on negativity.I make many mistakes.I have had a broken heart I trust no one.I am Un-selfish.I am quiet.I am Me. Life has always been a huge roller coaster ride for me and now I'm really getting tired of it. I just wanna put everything down and let go.
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